~Reth Reth~

NEW YEAR

2010-01-07T22:37:00.002+08:00

Alright, i know my blog is so dead. Just drop by to update a bit, before it turn to dust =.=

Today came across this verse

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34

So as such, i should not worry about my upcoming ippt and my work stuff. Should have faith in God yea. God i let u guide me thru yea.

Oh ya better put down my 2010 resolution.

- Million dollar club in AIA
- Commission at least 2.5k per month.
- Driving licence
- upgrade my financial adviser licence

Alright that all.

wish everyone a happy an exciting 2010. Ok my wishes are kind of late.

300909

2009-09-30T22:58:00.002+08:00

Today initially a great positive day. But once again, another wave of blow impact me. Contract maintenance. Was quite down initially. As after working towards this goal for so hard, once again this issue was not resolve. So i was merely you can say, at a loss of what to do.

I really like to thanks my colleague melody and michael for really encourage and motivate me. Without you two encouragement probably right now, i am still bit low morale. Really hope that in 3 months time, i can get this quota cleared once and for all.

Lastly, i really hope God will help me through for this coming saturday closing appointment. May i made another break through again.

i so giving up

2009-09-05T13:20:00.000+08:00

As the title say so. Probably it time to give up on everything i once ownz.

It better to be the old me who are cold-blooded. Then be a good guy. At least will not be easily affected. everything around me just change suddenly. Dunno why dun ask me. I will not even bother to answer.

This will be the last few times this blog be servicing for me. Will change to a new blog. Will let selected parties know again

*anyone wants clubbing pls call me today. i need a life

not a good start of the week

2009-09-02T21:35:00.001+08:00

Just mid of the week. Things don;t seems to be smooth till today.

Really hope it will turn out better tml onwards.

Hope i can last this down time. Before i fall......

brainless people

2009-09-01T22:12:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, i wonder if my parent ESP my mum is brainless or what. When i really off my BLOODY COMPUTER. Come and FUCKING ACCUSE OF being selffish dun wanna help her to check stuff?

WTF! COME ON, can;t u see that i am fucking offing my com ready. Can't you tell me earlier. Then when i off my fucking com, u then tell me that u wanna help me check stuff? When u knowingly aware that i am FUCKING using the FUCKING com a FUCKING a hour ago!

This world, people are seriously geting FUCK up!

FUCK this world la! FUCK

Gareth lim FUCK OFF!

tough wks

2009-08-20T00:16:00.002+08:00

For the two weeks. Things didn't go well for my work. Either appointments being shifted. Or the most priceless act by prospect will be, didn't turn up for the appointment. Despite being confirm on the eve of the actual appointment. Thou initially i wanted to drop them a call and scold the hell out of them, and knock some sense to their head, for being such irrespnsible people. Wasting of my time, i perfectly still ok with it, but transportation expenses, that will be UNFORGIVEN. You're not keen. you can just drop me a sms or call and tell me you're not interested. I'll not take a knife and point at you and say" you have to come" Let me give a thought whether to give them a call and lecture them.

Morale definately affected badly. Given currently to now, i have yet to bring in a single case. *stress* And continue of stunt after another. On the verge of banging the wall.

Hopefully i be better in day to comes. Feeling slight better today. Definately, in days to come, i'll be fully back to my own positive self. And i am convinced tht i can do prospecting alone in the street. As long as i know what i wants and the purpose of standing on the street.

Well that all i wanna talk about for today posting. To those ppl out there who are offended on my post, cause if YOU ARE SO HAPPEN TO BE ONE OF THE AEROPLANE FLYER, a information for you, blog is where people pour their feeling out!

*I CERTAINLY HOPE THOSE AEROPLANE FLYER, WILL CRASH AND DIE. MAY THE BLACK BOX NEVER BE FOUND

120809

2009-08-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

Came across a blog that says something kind of logical to me. It about our mind is so call inter-link to whatever we say.

Eg: you said you are ugly, soon you find yourself getting uglier. (sound scary huh) But probably, as you actually saying out, in another terms it call confess. Meaning you saying you be in this stage in future. So somehow, you will actually set your mind to that direction as such, the outcome, will be what you had confessed in the past.

So thru this message from a blog i happen to come across, means it time for me to change on major thing in me right now. My mouth of confession. I realise i tend to speak out negative then positive. Probably that was why, lately i was so down from all the circumstances that comes to my way huh.

The lesson learnt are as follows - speak positive. Speak good of yourself. Tml a better day! =D( Thou right now i'm still bit down over my work =.=)

Alright my company tokyo convention quota is out.

$48000 FYC 50 cases

Do wish me luck =D

Days just got better =D

2009-08-05T21:44:00.000+08:00

Alright i'm here to update on work related post

For month of july it's a great month for my sales. Unexpectedly, i closed a total of $10079 worth of sales. Major break through ya. Worth celebrate lol.

So well now, we come to the start of a new month. Which means that everything starts all over again. Stress huh? Kind of. But with consistence hard work, regular prospecting on the street, definately i believe that i can reach such result again =>

Today went prospecting with Guo Wei. Well initally thought that weather will not be on our side. As majority of the areas were raining. When we reach raffles place, thank God, it's not raining at all. Just cloudy. Perfect condition for prospecting.

We did prospecting for a solid 4 hours from 1pm to 5pm. Thou today result for both of us are not that good as we expected, but at least we achieved half of our target. Tired but worth it. Cause i believe more result will shown should i press on.

dinner met up with kee liang and jin Lih to catch up. soon we headed our own way as both of them going to visit some new friends while i head home and here i am blogging =.=

Alright that wll for today post.

Will try to update regularly should i have more time.

FOP 2009

2009-08-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

This weekend is the annual FOP ( Festival of praise) where christian around singapore will gather at indoor stadium to worship God together,.

For me myself, attended the service on friday. Serving on that day too. So basicially serve and attend.

Serving maybe tiring and hot as the team i at, on that day we are station for external duty. Which mean no air con. Thou it tiring and hot, but it was fun given that, there a few fun people in the team, so sometimes while there nothing to do, or the crowd has enter the hall, we just talk among ourselve.

Soon after the duty for external ended, i went to the hall to attend the service and worship God. The semon of the day is relevant to what i;m being facing lately. Which is worries. Basically it talking about how we can cast out our worries etc etc.

So it was a great day for me after all on that day. Soon after service, returned my fop usher tags and head home.

For weekend, bascially nothing much in particular. Sat went out with friends, sun which is today. Stay at home and rest and read some books to help me in my work.

alright that all

Chaoz.

300709 thurs

2009-07-30T22:45:00.000+08:00

Lately, lots of things are whirling in my mind. To a stage i feel like banging the wall right now while i am typing it.

Can say that i think too much, or too over emotional over certain stuff.

To be frank i have no idea what's in my mind right now. Being trying hard to find stuffs to do, to kick out those thoughts in my mind, but seems hard thou.

Work, stress too lately, as i really wants to improve my sales, and no longer being look down by people as a "BEI GAN" agent. I really hope that my family will understand what i went thru. Sometimes i take a break, not cause i wan to "eat snake". u think i like it? "eat snake" isn't it as good as suiciding? No appointment = no sales man! You think i song ah! Song my backside lo! Even come to weekend, when going out with friend or rest at home, you think i'm not worrying about my future, my career? I be thinking on what to do for the upcoming days and week alright.

Sleepless night, can think till i become awake. POWER RIGHT! I know thks. Need not compliment ya. I see no need in that thou. If i'm not serious in this career, i long have given up and F off from this industry.

Sometime supports came from your very own family member, should they dun even show a very least of support, fark it, dunno how to complete my farking setnences liao.

Just hope that tml after FOP i will feel better and ease.

sorry for my attitude post.

thing seems so well till then

2009-06-24T23:29:00.002+08:00

Things seems to goes smooth for me in my career for near half a year. Sales picking up, client base growing. However, all hope and positive mindset just topple to ground zero with just a phone call today at 2 plus when i meeting a friend for lunch.

Once again, failed to hit my minimum requirement as per mentioned by my manager. As a result my contract is at a risk of being terminated. It was a moment of shock to me when for the few months, my sales are picking up almost double as compare to last year. Yet, it was still report as i fail to meet my contract maintenance.

I really hope this appeal letter i wrote earlier. will be the my last and no more. And i will be able to clear for the remaining quarter. My mind is really blank right now on the ways and ideas to bring in new cases ready. I had tried whatever way i could. I just hope for a miracle only. Which is just a piece of blank hope. Just hope that my hard work will come to past soon.

Ppl ask me to quit? Why i dun? Reason simple. First is the career i in. To most of you, you all might think it's a dumb fuck career, running about asking ppl to buy insurance. But in my point of view., sales in one thing, money another. That's ok. But ultimately, i stay not cause of this two factors. Is the promise i made to all my client. I really wan to taken care of their policy in my very own hand.

2009-06-02T01:44:00.002+08:00

certain things are better to keep within myself. If this coming few days, guys if ever i had a FUCK UP attitude. PLS pardon me. Not on purpose. Just certain things in my mind right now.

Just respect me once, don't ask me what's in my mind. Will not wish to disclose, or in another word, i have no idea what it is anyway.

Will try to overwork myself to make myself tired to not to bother by it. Or let the pain of my pain injury makes me unable to think. Either way...

-Gareth-

2009-05-24T01:01:00.002+08:00

I'm tired, morale low to the max Appointments major shifted one by one. Confident of all appointments i fixed no longer there, fear of ppl will shifted last min.

I need a break from all the stuff.

This world is too real. Reality makes a person evil. Am i turning into one? No idea dude no idea.

Ppl look down on me fine. Think i bei gan fine. I wanna prove just that i'm too tired for now. I'll be back to get even with u all jokers one day.

Going berserk soon.

i need a breather...

The day coming soon

2009-05-07T01:21:00.003+08:00

6 days to IPPT.

What the outcome will be for me?

Will i be able to clear it without going to phrase 2?

I want to clear it.

Result will be out next wed after 9pm stay tune =.=

Sound as if advertising

life is like a story

2009-04-30T00:05:00.003+08:00

ok today post will be related to the title

I alway believe that our life is like a story. We being the author of our life. Determine how it will be. We can either make our story great or exciting or just another boring story. Everyone has their very own set of story.

However in our life story, just like any other story u seen in this world, definately the main character will meet with obstancle somehow. So since, in a story there is challenge, i need not have to say much that our life too will face with difficulties and hard time too. Not alway, things will goes according to your plot, hip cup here n there. Set back bringing you down. However, the story of our life still has to goes on. As i has not reach the final chapter which is when we pass on.

Life is nv that smooth sailing, we given as the main character in the story. Of cause have the decision to give up or fight on to reach a wonderful ending in the story. Plus we has only one life and what we be in the next stage noon knows, why not stand up again and fight on. Problems are bound to have, but problems are just problems, does not mean can't be resolve. Is all up to us on how we wants to deal with it and overcome it.

We should not look back on our setback, and dwell on it, nor should we escape from it. As the problem will still be there.We should alway fight strong like the main character in a story on all obstancles and moves on in our adventure in life.

Never worry about tomorrow, live fullest today and be strong. Worrying can't bring us elseway, but lead us to despair.

Problem Resolved

2009-04-21T23:01:00.001+08:00

Well it gonna be another short post.

The problem highlighted ytd. Has being resolved. The client still accept the proposal i made. Will process accordingly still..

Lesson learn, please read and prepare well before going for appointment. Or else you suffer the same fate as me.

Alright that all for now.

End of update.

major mistake

2009-04-20T23:25:00.002+08:00

Short post

mistake made today in my presentation, wrong infor was shared with client.

Either client still take this particular proposal or my. Or i'll loss the deals totally.

greatest mistake made in my 1.5 yrs as a insurance agent.

To be update again tml on the outcome.

sign off : Gareth

lifes still has to goes on i guess

2009-04-13T00:45:00.004+08:00

To be frank, lately too many things happen continuously. Till i almost wanna bang the wall. Death, misfortune all take place at a go. What is going on T.T

Then thinking that probably i myself have forgotten some setback years back. Sad to say, it still taunting/ haunting me till to date. Really seems to be a mind war yea. FREAK -.- Why can't i just moves on. Damn it. Can stop taunting/ haunting me you stupid past. Thou after that incident, we no longer contact. Well i just hate the past me yea. FUCK UP TYPE.

RT coming in days come. I really hope that i can clear my IPPT in the 4 weeks. By hook or by crook. I will clear it. Be it have to enter coffin after that test, i will do it. I do not want to waste my freaking time on such worthless stuff. I have better things to do which is to earn $ and slap it on people who look down on me MUAHAHAHAH (Gareth is certify sick)

K that all i seriously dun feel like talking or blog now. Moodless

*to you who do not have my bloglink*
I know that past years there a misunderstanding that result to us can't be friend at all. Not couple nvm, friend also gone. I really hope that one day if you do happen to pop by this blog, i will see this, i am really sorry. I really hope that there is a chance for me to explain fully to you that that the particular person, that scolded you. Was my fault for telling her my xin shi. I sincerely apology. (to: Ng.M.M)

100409 fri

2009-04-10T22:03:00.001+08:00

ok. i'm aware that my blog is dusty to the max. But seriously, i have no idea what to blog man! Lol.

So just update about my career.

To date, i closed near to 8 cases for the month of march to april. Do wish me for more cases in days to come yea =>

Chaoz.

110109 sun

2009-01-11T22:29:00.002+08:00

best pic of the year i ever know when i was too bore and come out with a pose. Not knowing the camera was on. And here the outcome =.= i being own

2009-01-05T00:41:00.002+08:00

#1 The first person who tagged in your blog is: Tan Jian Yang aka Rambutan
#2 Your relationship with him/her: friend
#3 Your impression of him/her: siao lan, laugh non stop =x
#4 The most memorable thing he/she has done for you: can't think of any lei.
#5 The most memorable thing he/she said to you: he heartless la... so no memory lol
#6 If he/she become your lover you will: Freak! Gay! dun wan la. thou ppl call me gayreth =.=
#7 If he/she become your lover, thing(s) he/she has to improve/change will be: is a he. So not my dai ji HAHHAHA
#8 If he/she become your enemy, you will: haha energy ah...i will wan him to die! in pieces!
#9 If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be: Too handsome =.=
#10 The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is: Dunno i heartless
#11 Your overall impression of him/her is: none stop laughter from start to end
#12 How you think people around you feel about you?: Siao lan also. Good at ka ppl jiao wei. Till the person nose bleed to the max. Workaholic siao lan
#13 The characteristic(s) that you love about yourself is: King of ka ppl jiao wei~!! TAGMAN!
#14 On the contrary, the stuff you hate about yourself are: too soft hearted. Cannot like that lei must be hard like rock =.=
#15 The most ideal person you want to be is: a successful person in life.
#16 Say something to those who care and like you: Thanks Gum dong ( touch)
#17 Pass this quiz to 10 people (tag those with blogs):
1. Basil
2. Hidayat
3. Pei Wen
4. jia hua
5. Alvin
6. Guo Liwen
7. keeliang
8. Catherine
9. weijie
10. abigail
#18 Who is no.6 having relationship with? HAHAH SBS BAS TRansit! ~
#19 Is no.9 a male or female? braman
#20 If 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? well will not happen. Forget about the if la.. number 7 is attached
#21 What is no. 2 studying? ngee ann poly.
#22 When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3? if msn consider it will be about one wk back
#23 What kind of music does no. 8 like? iya dunno lei ranie yang ba
#24 Does no. 1 has any siblings?yes, two
#25 Will you woo no. 3? Mai siao la! She's my Mei la dey! Bodoh!
#26 How abt no. 7? Wait tio whack by his Gf..dun wan dun wan..insurance coverage not enough yet!
#27 Is no. 4 single? Attached till cannot detach
#28 What's the surname of no. 5? unknown!
#29 Whats the hobby of no. 10? eh no idea lei....will change when i know =x
#30 Does no. 5 and 9 get along well? oh my what do you think? They belong to the anti TAG team lol
#31 Where is no. 2 studying at? ngee ann poly!
#32 Talk something casually about no. 1? oh he so man~~ lol
#33 Have you tried developing feelings for no. 6? Nah.
#35 What colour does no. 4 like? good qns. no idea =.=
#36 Are no. 5 and 1 best friends? hhaha dunno la..ask em urself
#37 Does no. 1 have any pets? i doubt. unless cockroaches consider
#38 Is no. 7 th sexiest person in the world? today comment is...there no comment for today
#39 What is no. 6 doing now?prepare her exam application form i guess..HAHAHa

2009

2009-01-04T22:23:00.002+08:00

Ok ok i'm back. I aware there lots of complain on hey! Gareth your blog turn to dust ready. Being months didn't update my blog. Well busy thou. Plus there a period when my blog setting face with some issue. So well don't feel like tagging. Well at least now it better ya. so i'm back to posting. Lol.

Ok 2009 ya, a new year a new start. Before i talk about my new year resolution. Let look at 2008. How was the yaer for me. Well, one word. Make it simple ya. BAD. Too many things happen at a go...

Ok enough of 2008, as people mention, past. Why brough it up again. So let's look forward to 2009 ya!

Resolution for 2009!
- In my career as aia agent -> Club qualification ( Shinning Stars , total sales of 50, 000)
- More disipline in term of time management and work.
- Focus in what i want to achieve be it career or personal lifes.
- Income breakthrough
- No more bad temper
- Better relationship with family

Hmm should be that all ya.

Ok end of my very first 2009 first post.

240708

2008-07-24T22:44:00.003+08:00

K back from being MIAED for month i guess. Today update. Be only base on the recent issue. No backtracking. I hate to look back to my history text, to see what goes on for the past month.

200708 - 240708

Ok this blog will be the summarise of this coming week. What happening or happens in my life. First, let's talk about happy stuff ya. I got my water baptism last sunday. Ok was happy, as i baptis with the few of my brothers and sister in my cell group. Which i believe will be a new and remarkable journey in my christian walks.

Ok end of happy moment. K i know it's fast. K what to do k. Life is full of up and down k .

Recently terms with family not in a good shape. Lots of misunderstanding and miscommunication. In the end, whose fault. I should not seek further ya. ME. So i think i don't have to further elaborate ya. Enough. All i wanna say is, well, i finally know what the true colors of my family. BIAS. Why, when something happen to my bro, wow! EVERYONE RUSHES TO HIS AID MAN. when i in need, what do i get, let me think...well probably some real solid nagging ya. GREAT, "SUPERB SATISFY"

Family is fine, matter get worst gradually as the week drawing to a close. I really don't know what is going on. Looks like from this incident. Our friendship will be tarnish. In that case, i would like to say sorry k. my bad for poor management alright? Not i don't wish to uphold my promise, i didn;t take u for granted too. If u really needs it urgently, i don;t mind paying u. But why do u have to use such a tones on me? Do i sound like david? Will run away? In singapore, how far can i run? I'm a man of responsiblilty. I know i did own , i will sure pay u back. Nvm this issue has being solved.

After that, today the ULTIMATE FINAL BLOW. I'm fall under probation in my company. For falling to meet the total sales quota. Kind of demoralising. I admit it in. What can i do? Cry? Enough of crying. I rather be zai then cry. Be it whatever u all think i am k? Act cool? So be it ah. Thou till now i am still quite upset over the past incident. Well i doubt i'm gonna dwell over it. Really hope tml, the day i take a break, be the last time i taking break on weekday cause of this nonscene.

I really hope now God you will help me out in my career be it, finance, family or any areas of my life. I believe he's alway there for me. He never fails to be away once.

I would like to take this opportunities to thank the following person for being there to encourage me when i am down. From W357 - Aloi, Niclolas and Kee Liang. Tokuasia - Wei Jie My great Brother - Hidayat and a great friend Catherine.

Super long post..

2008-06-08T14:19:00.002+08:00

okok. i'm back. I admit it has being a long time since i last update. Being quite busy with stuff lately.

Ok so here the entire update of what going on lately ya.

First let's talk about work. Work wise for the past weeks. Well the speed goes slow again.. Well quite bad actually. Lots of appointments either shifted or cancelled. As a reult, morale wise, was relatively affected.

Next incident is, well lately i do have conflict with a couple of friends regarding of my current career. Well i got to admit, i am a person who is strong at will, when i know firmly and clearly what my dream is, definately i will not gives up on my dream, until i am assure that i have go 100% into it and at least to me i feel more a sense of *Du De Qi* myself. That the causes of the occurance of conflict with my friend. They think it time for me to quit, when i look at it, well...i find that i have not being in this career for at least a year. Quitted now, is abit wasted. Hope you guys understand.

Next incident. Last wk...i being down with fever from sunday all the way till thursday night. Then it start to become stable. *scary hor* Well cause of this illness, i'm unable to work for almost the entire week. Another week gone. But thank God, i manage to fix the coming weeks with few appointments..

Ok final part.

An outing with Catherine and Pei Wen

We went to dempseyhill. Ok i know some of you might be wondering, do such place exist in singapore? Well it do. If you would like to know the where about, you can go yahoo.com search engine ya =x Well that place, is my first time to being there. Trust me, i don;t even know such a place exist.

A unique place. The moment u steps in, you will not have the feeling of Singapore. Peaceful place, nice environment. Good place to relax. We went to severals place within dempsey hill like that bird santury where there is quite a number of parrot, being set freely to hang around a so call tree. To let visitor like us to look. Well greeted by fews of them for sure..haha dare not touch them. Looks kind of deadly as in might bite my finger off.

Next we head to ben and jerry for a chill session... had a waffle icecream shared by the 3 of us..lol.. well the ice cream is great trust me! As the ice cream melts in ur mouth. Slowly the mint flow around you mouth..oh my god... follow suit we headed to some grocery shops at dempsey hill. Item are unique so are the price.. lol

Soon it near to dawn. We headed to holland V. Also same first time there lol..ok la i admit i am bit "mountain tortise" k. What to do that my life... alway orchard suntec that all. We walk around holland V while to explore explore. Then headed to the katong laksa store to has katong laksa for out dinner. Tell u the laksa is good.... also suitable to lazy ppl. Cause chop stick not needed..lol

Ok overall the outing is great! Unforgetable...lol ..

Ok that all...

end of update.

Back after a month of MIA

2008-05-03T23:41:00.002+08:00

Ok it's be awhile since i last update i suppose so. Quite busy with work lately. So don't really have the chance to update ya. So what is happening lately? Bascially nothing happening happens...=.= Just another working life i suppose so.

Either working, or slacking. till now more committment as i go back to church. Better too ya.

Well lately i have being more focus on my work ba. Since finally right now, i know what i truely wants in my life. That is to establish well in my this career which is insurance agent. Thou it may be tough for the start, well at least right now, i am bringing in some income at least. Better then $0 ya. lol...

Well i have decided, well thought health more important it true, but still well since i am young now, of cause i think it best to really all go out now. Why? Cause when you are young, you still have the energy to full burst. can't be really wait till you are old, then think, ok it time to chiong, by then i think u can wait for coffin ya.

And why i think i wanna "chiong" now, cause i don't want to laze around and see my future family suffer like how i did right now. I want them to have a better life, both my wife kids and parent of cause. I wan a break though, that why i come into this career. Where all things is possible. Plus i do have God right now. Have faith la...haha

Ok that all ya. Nothing to blog at the moment. Brain dead.

just a simple quote: Opportunity don't comes often, it might just pass by you once. Should u missed it or take it for granted, it can just slip off. Chances and ppportunity don't come as often as you think. So once it slip off, well it will not come back. Even you're hoping for it. So to all out there, do treasure all opportunity and chances you have. It not come often.

Take Care

Gareth

020308

2008-03-02T21:04:00.002+08:00

Recently, lots of my fellow friends in AIA either quitted or convert to part time. Well, likely due to not doing well i suppose. Then there is one sunny day, a particular friend of my also fr AIA. He joined few months later then me. But, one fine day, he come and ask me. Have i ever thought of converting to part time or quit AIA eventually?

hmm that a very good question right? Thou i know, in the current world context, without money is a tough thing to go on for. But, why the first place i join this line? Cause i know of it and prepare to face it. It not that i'm not earning anything right now. Is just that it not to the optimal amount still.

If to quit due to low income. I will first ask this question. Why earn so little? Did i work hard enough? What the percentage of affort i have place into it? I don't want cos of low income and quit. It be like, i know i sure will regret one day. Cause when i turn back or look back, realising actually i didn't put enough affort. Insurance line, first year, usually is a suffer year as we start from scratch. With no basic pay, which makes the matters worst. But, as long as affort and consistence affort are put in, sales will gradually comes in. Eventually will be out of proverty.

In this career, mental strength got to be strong. We can't alway dwell on the particular matter. Moevs on, not that in this world u have only one particular prospect. Along the street there plenty still.

Anyway, today Cat be coming back from hongkong. Do tell me how your trip there k? haha got saw eric anot. =x

Ok that all for today.

A bad day

2008-02-26T01:27:00.002+08:00

ok back for blogging. Now can't sleep thk to noon gastric attack during lunch break with my agency. After lunch, sudden spur of sharp pain starts to take place. Make me nearly faint. And also cause of that, i can't stay back in office tonight to make calling to fix more appointment...grr..

ok now let talk about what i did for the past few days. No life ba.... lolz. saturday. Meet jian yang and wei jie at amk. For what? A game of pool. Too bore nth to do. so play pool lo.haha. Well fun and funny. Esp wei jie, when he can finish the game by hitting the black ball into the pocket. But i win instead, cause he shoot the black ball out of the table. Laugh my guts out. =x

While that day, they won most of the time. Me ah....bascially losing all the way. No focus..haha Anyway thank for making out the time to play ya. haha Then after that, we go to cash converter. Wei Jie, you got to thank me! It was i recommend to u, that why u manage to find your X japan. hahaha =p

Ok for sunday, well working day for me. Had a appointment at jurong east. Then after that go home loh..haha

6 more days.... and cat will be back in singapore le. Will look forward to it. => Anyway hope that u're are doing find in taiwan.

K that all for today. Time to knock out.

Night

230208

2008-02-23T01:03:00.002+08:00

Ok i know being a while didn't post. Heres the post ya. Anyway a revamp of my blog. So hopefully it's better ya. No more complain of messy blog =x

Firstly, got to gives credit to Catherine. cause she's the one who helped me with the layout and such. I'm a noob in html ya. Hahaa

Ok let's talk abt cny ba. Nth happening. Just another day to me i suppose so. Happening is, that chu yi, no visitng this year. Weird right. I think so too.... nvm. Business resume on chu er and san. Then the rest of the cny is mainly friends comes to my house to have fun. One happening part will be, after long lost contact with pri sch friend, finally we met on 17 feb a sunday,. We went to our pri 6 form teacher house for buffet and ba nian of cause. Well he can't reg me. Did i become older? lolz...haha it ok..then night time, we have lao yi shen. Happening right. On whole this year cny is rather happening for me towards the ending part of it.

Anyway, Cat i believe you won't see this blog till you're back in singapore 9 days later ya. You be flying off in 4 hours plus time. Hope the four leaves i drew will be there protecting u alway in taiwan and hongkong. Enjoy your trips ya. Rem got nice picture must share hor. =x. Got mdwav also forget me not. >.< Take care ya.

K that all for my blogging. Looks like i blog for the sake of blogging..-.-

Dreams

2008-02-01T00:46:00.000+08:00

I believe that everyone in their lifes have dreams. So why do we have dream? why some people able to furfilled their dream, while others not? Nobody has a answer thou. The answer lies within oneself.

Me myself i also have dream. This career. Insurance industry. Well i know, lots of people will be thinking, "hey why u have a diploma, yet u ener such a career without a basic salary?"
My ans: Well, it's just my dream? I just really hope that i can do something big in my life. With no regrets? I don't wish to by the time i am at the late 40s. Starts to look back and hey. Why during my early 20s i didn;t do what i wanted to. By then it may be too late.

The next purpose is to, i wanted my family to have a better life, be it my future own family, my parents. But well, not everyone seems to understand. Parent for instant, i work till late, or i didn;t work. What out of their mouth? nothing Good or encouraging. Sometimes, i just wonder, have they spare a thought for me? Is it true that being the eldest, u be discarded one side? I don;t really bother? Or u wanna me to chu a stunt, then by then u all regret? Maybe i should. Will look into it yea. All the while, people had said, hey Gareth, i can tell u are quite troubled from your look. Why are you putting up a fake smile where ever u go?

The ans is. be it good or bad. Do i really have to show to people? I don't think there a need. Since noone care? Thou there are i suppose. I don;t wants to make them worry. I am a man, i believe i should be strong and firm at times. I think... a cell group mate asked: are you going to stay in insurance line for life? My answer: Yes. It my passion. If i can do it. I'll will.... all of us has only one life. Why not make full use of it? Even if one day i failed, i will not regret why? I know i have tried. At least i tried....

Next let's talk about other matters: (Sorry if today post kinda of long). To ppl in W357. Thank for your concern. Yet to some. I'm happy that u guys are growing within the cell group. I really have to say this. Not that i don't want to come back or what? There is some issue that hinder me at the moment. Even if u all wanna come out with ways such as to forge out a sum of money just to help me during this rainy season. Thank but it ok. My problem i solve it myself. i don;t wish to relie on people. To some, who thinks that i backslide, if u all think even if i still believe in God, but no relationship is consider backslided, while...i really left speechless. Then i should said take care to all. Whether i be back anot. It my concern. Thank

K that all for today. sorry for the tremendous long post. I believe you guys must be sick of reading it. Sorry

25012008

2008-01-25T23:54:00.000+08:00

Ok it's being a while ( rather long) i suppose so, to update my blog yeah.

Ok what today blog about. Ok base on the date stated above, i believe u guys can tells what days is today right? yes it'e my birthday.

Ok this year, birthday i would like to say, well rather unexpected. Firstly, i didn't even think it be any significant event to me. Well just another day yea. But, nope, it not this time. Further details be up in the next few paragraphs.

On the eve of birthday, Catherine, sent me a video, made by her personally. (Details of video, classifield)=p to wish me happy birthday when the clock strike 12am in the night. Hey your timing is rather accurate yea. The video is nice! *Touched*

Today, is the first time in my life, my birthday to be of more life. I would like to thank this person call Catherine. Thank you really...for making my birthday just a memorable one...=D Thou we merely just walking around vivo. BUT you made my day of my despite even there is a show you seldom miss it, you sacrifice to celebrate with me.. thank you. For both your present and dinner. => *touched* sobsob

Eh boss aka rachel my aia manager. You not left out la...thk u for ur breakfast too. =>

I would like to thank the following people for the birthday wish:

AIA - SP -Rachel - Joshua
Ricando, Wei Juan, William, Louis, Melody, Liling, Rachel, shina

Tokuasia
Gan Meng Yeow, Basil Yeo, Lim Wei Jie, Hidayat, scikaiju, the second, kay, Jac, Liwen, biorider, Jian Yang, Nelson

Metro
Christine, joyce, jenny

Others
Kee liang, Nicholas, Gerald, joy, yiling ( my godsis), Mei Qin (My god sis), Xin Hui, Ming Wei, Zhao Yang, Jia Hua.

ps: to those whose name are not listed. not on purpose k. Too many to list. So bit confuse.
Still thank you all.

Esp Catherine! =>

120108

2008-01-11T23:47:00.000+08:00

Seriously..nothing to post. Come to post for the sake of posting. Nth happening lately. Just another day. Don't ask me about how i'm going to spend my birthday. I'll ROAR and kill you all with one blow. I'm deadly.

It 2008 not 2007. => So prepare for the badest of me..... => Wanna try or interested candidate can feel free to gives me a call. I'll entertain you with the best of the best..=>

Enjoy all....your new 2008.

Sign off
Gareth Lim

261207

2007-12-26T01:13:00.000+08:00

Think it's time to moves on.... no point hanging on to something that is not mend to be yours...

A decision made. Since this is not what being decided for me in my life. Moves on ya.... Thank to all who being supporting me all this while...

The path once chosen maybe wrong, does not mean i have to stuck here forever. I'll look for more hope in the upfront....

04122007

2007-12-04T22:00:00.000+08:00

Ok.. back from a long mia from blog i believe... The blog seems kinda of rusty after not being blogging for long.

Alright, here the sum up for the month of november.

ok for november. For the entire month, it not a good month to me. Why ? Cause of bad sales for the month of october. I don't have any sales at all for october. Which lead me to be very stress for the month of november. Cause if november no sales again, i as good as dead meat.

So in the month of november, due to serveral factors. My mood and attitude change from bad to worst. Out of no reason, all negative remarks starts to spur out of my mouth. Lead to the shock of my manager, and fellow working friends.

Being scolded by managet too...but not for poor performance of my sales. But due to my poor attitude being protrait out of me. Well i didn't blame her of cause. CAuse i know she mean for my own good too.... It was then when i start to wake up of my own world and start to take steps to ensure that on november it be a better month.

Downturn there is still..but i would like to thank one more person too... who made a so call impact in my life too... without this particular person. I really got to say with assurance, i'm as good as gone..... she lend me her ear alway whenever i need someone to rant.

Cat: that the person i'm refering to. I would like to thank you for your patient, and support u gaves to me alway. Till now. Thank you. I own you lots..... Hope in future i can help u out too... =>

Well for the month of november. it may seems bad, but still there is good time. Such as my forum tokuasia anniversary lunch and also i attended CAT steamboat at marina bay. Hey not to worry ya, your outing is not boring... Not to worry. =>

Ok for this month, it a new start for me. For this month, is a new start for me. On sunday, i manage to close a deal with a cold prospect. I would like to thank you Thinesh... Thank you for letting me the chance to service you......

Alright that all for today.

Gareth

Few months later

2007-10-31T17:34:00.000+08:00

Ok...my blog seems to be quite dusty. Didn't being blogging since july huh.... well busy with work till forgotten about my blog account. Ok, let's make it short, just to update all what happen for the past few months.

Ok i'm working in the insurance sector. Ok to be frank for the start, it is tough..damn tough...so for those who wants to be an insurance agent. Kindly please be mentally prepare. You got to sacrifice lots of your prescious time. To do street prospecting and calling. It be mentally and physically draining.

Ok how am i doing recently...one word, BAD. Why so far to date which is today. I have only two cases in hand. Which as compare to my another friend, who entered this industry just one wk ahead of me, had already closed approx 12 cases. Which makes me really really stress right now. Things don't seems that good for the start such as financial problems, relationship with family. usually mainly on money issue.

Mocking everywhere, saying why u wanna be a insurance agent? Why not a property agent? De... pls think la dey! You think property agent is easy to do as compare to insurance agent? Oh god! Worst for a newbie too. Who can affort a property at such a young age? Not everyone, and in singapore, not everyone is changing their property as and when they like. Now it may be doing good, but who know it 5 years time? property in singapore is alway going up and down, that why i chose not to take the risk. Nvm one day i should them i can do it. Make them kneel down and worship me.... as the ONE. =x

Well lately feeling quite lousy too. Lots of appointments. But so far all still pending... stress....but thank god there one confirm on this friday, or else i think i'm gonna bang the wall sooner or later.

Well next i also want to thank god for sending this person to my life la, i call her CAT la..cos she call me carrot =.=. Or else i really don't have anyone who will listen to my ranting... Sorry ya...keep disturbing u today.

Alright, that all for the short update. More coming up soon. Got to prepare for my appointment later at hougang point. Welfare ya...happen that this client lives near me..haha Wish me all the best man.

-Stress~

Random

2007-07-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

Ok. I know it's being a while since i last update my blog. Ok some random entries ya.

Ended my national service a month plus ago. Back to civilians. Well, time flies ya. Currently studying for exam, cause i intend to work as an insurance agent. So have to go thru a series of exam.

Well tough challenge the first place, when i studied for the first paper. Took my a day to get one chapter done. Scary ya. haha Well that the consequence for not studying for past two years.

Passed the two out of three papers. One more to go on this coming monday.

Ok just a short random entries on the past two months i suppose. Haha

Revival

2007-05-20T19:37:00.000+08:00

Well it has being quite a while. Erm not a while i think, few months since i last update my blog ya. Ok well let me type a brief of how life of my recently.

Left less then 3 weeks to end of my national service ya. Mean i gonna be civilian soon! =D Well long waiting for that to arrive. Finally it here. Well, thank god, i manage to get a job too during MAY this year. Kiasu ya. But Kiasu is good at time. At least you don;t have to bother or trouble that when you ord, you can't find any job. I'll be joining and working as a finacial advisor. Do support me is can ya! =>

Ok now let talk about my life. I believe many of you here be stunt once i annouce this. Well, i received salvation from chris. Well going to be 2 months old in 2 weeks time. =>

Ok life so far, thinking of my past, well i think there is more and just a little bit of changes in my life. I believe those who knows me, knew that i'm a low esteem, persimistic guy. Bad temper etc right. Well, looks like it's is the past of me ya. Right now, i can sense that i'm no longer like that. More positive in my life. Even my counsellor who i went counsel for spot that i'm improve. That is indeed a good achievement i made together with him.

No longer like before, who use to blame on oneself for all the mistake and problem. Now i'm able to think on a bigger circle on what the cause and such. Cool down and think, rather then blame on myself. More cheerful yup! Can see me smiling where ever i go. =D

Well ok that all, will update more and days goes by. =D

Trust me, from the post of today onward, there will more of excitement thrill then those rant and complain or sorrow! =D

Take care

God Bless!

Low Morale.... -_-

2007-02-28T21:58:00.000+08:00

It's being few month since i last blogged i believe. Well can say lazy to blog. Lazy to log in etc etc.
Don't know what the purpose of having a pair of hands for me...lazy this and that.

Well lately nothing much, right now, i'm looking forward to end of my 2 years service in NS. After that, i got to plan what i want to do after the end of my service. Headache.

Well, nothing much to blog actually, cause not much of happening stuff lately. Same problem still....still the same old me..vex vex and more vex. Hope i can square off my problems by the end of my national service....head big.. -_-

Conclusion, a failure, can't do big things in life..... gone case....

2006 coming to an end

2006-12-31T13:51:00.000+08:00

While i'm writing right now, 2006 is drawing closer to an end. In a few hours time, everything will start a new page. It's 2007! Well let do a recap for 2006.

Well for 2006, it don't seems to be a good year for me. Everything seems going the opposite way as what i wanted to. Lots of down and up. Problems and problems i faced, all can't be solved. Soon family problem also pop out in the picture. After that religion, start to have a bigh arguement with one of my leader. Which is still going on till now. As a whole, i'm quite lost in my life.

Well for 2006 there is something for me worth remember of. A friend who i know in MIRC #TPC yrs ago, Meng Yeow, told me that a forum is created. Well but during that period i was not that active still when i first join. partly is due to duty in camp. So that time i only know Meng Yeow and Basil.

Till my first meet them on a sunday going to ChinaSquare. Then i start to know more people, Hwang, Wei Jie and Adam stepped into my new circle of friendship. Well that time i'm still not that close with them till more exposure with them in msn. Got to know more people during a makan session at Chomp chomp. This time i got to know more of Wei Jie, Meng Yeow and Basi and Hwang. This time Kai and Guan Cheng also known as Van but Wei Jie and Basil love to call him KUKUJACK so i started to call him that too. Ha~

Then from that chomp chomp outing, i started to get to know more about Kai and realise he stay rather near to my house, then we start to hang out more often at night for kpoi session at our coffeeshop, with Wei Jie who joined us once a while so are Hwang. It was then i started to get close to TokuAsia.

It was through TokuAsia and the people in TokuAsia i then realise i'm not that useless as what i thought. They let me know what i am good at, uncovered my true potential within myself. Thk Guys! Without TokuAsia, think today i won't be having such a good time at the 3/4 of the year.

Also able to hang on with my Fan-Fic GUNDAM DESTINY which i'm having problem with, and right now! I had completed 50% of the whole series.

Well my new year resolution will be of cause, the grow of TokuAsia, more people will join. I can contribute more to the forum.

Last but not least, wish everyone a HAPPY New Year ahead!

suck feeling.

2006-12-20T21:55:00.000+08:00

Sorry for no update for past month. Lazy and also there nothing for me to update on.

Well now to update some. Well being transferred to another department in camp. Well at first feel better till lately, my problem start to reoccur again. Now i start to think of all the negative thoughts again and again. Till one stage i going mad. i know if this goes on, that it i will collapse soon.

I just keep thinking that i'm the most useless crap in this world. Why am i in this world? What the fuck am i doing so far? why one problems after another? why can't it be solved? Why? I can't get along well with people around me. I can't control my emotion etc. What the fuck is happening to me!

Forget it. That all. Just type to vent my anger on.

Overview

2006-10-29T20:28:00.000+08:00

Ok lately quite busy so didn't really got time to update my blog. Er or you can said i merely lazy to type. Why? I have no idea too. Well lately nothing much actually, but that temperory i am removed from duty due to family, and personal problems. Family problem i will not state here as it is a sensitive issue.

Personal problem ah. well i'm afraid that i am stress overload that one thing, next is too persismitic, etc etc. Can't name all. By then it like writing a composition. Well right now just feel lost in whatever i am doing. Just don't have a sense of direction, not knowing what i want and what i want to do. So quite frustrated lately. Just not myself.

So i try whatever ways to keep myself busy as possible. Friday night, met up with a group of TOKUASIA friends, for phototaking at clark quey, rather cool, we pose serveral poses etc well want to see what we took, go take a look at my friendster. Well this group of people is a group which have the same interest as my, we love to dream and imagine.

But sad to say, people tend to comment the pic we took as 'Lame'. So here just a word of notice to those, this is our dream, our imagination, you have no right to comment on it, you not happy with it, just shut the F*** up and don't talk. Everyone has their own interest and dream, this is our. Our dream and what we really want to do... To those who comment on it, do think, we are doing what we are happy in! So watch your words!

World Trade Center

2006-10-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

Today went to catch a movie called 'World Trade Center' with 2 friends. Lucky i went down and get the ticket early, or else that it gone. Well the show start at 7.05. We watch the movie at 'The Cathay' situated near plaza singapura.

Well the show had a fast start, by 30 mins i think, it show the plane crashed onto one of the tower of world trade center. Then this group of police personal, whose doing they normal routine, were called back to the head quarter.

Ok to make it short, this story is about two police officer, one a sergeant and one i think is a private, cos didn't see his rank at any part of his uniform. It is about how this two police personnal survive in the rumbles. How they encourage each other to survive and live on. How their survive and live on for their loves one, not to give up. The spirit within them and the will to live even how tough the current situation they are in.

Overall a very touching and greatest movie i ever seen so far. Thumbs up! K that all .... don;t want put too much spoiler.....

031006

2006-10-03T20:37:00.000+08:00

K i'm back, i know it being quite a while didn't update. Cause don't know what to update and don;t feel like typing. Too lazy. Touch the keyboard until don't feel like touching. Well due to some reason, i am now currently 8 to 5 basic and i do not have to do any duty. Just come camp 8 to 5 do some stuffs that it.

Everysince 8 to 5, feel more relax, there more thing i wanted to accomplished able to be done within a certain period of time as planned. Not as tense as before, now more relax ya. Mood can say to be better ya.

K that all man, really got nothing much to update, only that the major thing to tell ya, time to go do some drawing for my fanfriction and think what the next episode of my fanfriction should be like.

Gareth is back..

2006-09-17T21:31:00.000+08:00

Well quite a while didn't blog ya. Well cause lots of thing to do the few weeks ago.

Lots of unhappiness the few weeks ago. Whatever i did, it didn't turn out well at all. I tried my best to accomplished what i want but in the end it go another way round. So it a bit demoralising loh. Then i keep compare with the people ard me. Till a stage which i nearly collapse.

But after constant thinking, well i should b happy for what i am right now. Why compare with people. It will lead to more unhappiness only. So i have decide to do what i'm suppose to do. And do it well that all. And i'll be happy.

Well after a long break. I feel more refresh. Hope was here again thank to my friend. Thk buddy! Tml will be the start of another duty week. But will be a short one for me for this cycle as next wk i b on leave on monday and tuesday mean that i on this coming sunday monring i go back, and evening time i can go le..

k got to go liao..chaoz. update again soonz.

A deep breath

2006-08-27T19:53:00.000+08:00

Well nearly a mth of no updating ya. Well can said i MIA. Rather busy that why. Alway got stuffs install for me to do either in camp or at home. All typing and typing. Phew..going to go crazy man.

hmm ok let talk about the past wks. Well to me just a normal wk. Everyday just passed. One day after another. Sleep duty sleep duty and sleep. Monotonous right? i Agree.... What to do that NS man. Well lately not a smoothing wk for me too. There is still wave after wave going on, on me. From family which is done to nw BGR again. I'm getting sick man. Wanted to kill myself man. Going crazy you can said that...

After a wk of long break, finally i feel that my mind are more peace and ease ba... not as much trouble as before..... this whole wk of break, basically went out with friend. Chill chit chat just to keep my mind busy so as to prevent from thinking further. Then thur was my platoon outing, abit lame la..but at least better then going back to camp ya.... and also meet up someone to clarify some doubt become i make up my mind. May be tough but have to do it. Well why give up the whole forest for a tree.... well it true...trying hard ya...

Then fri and sat... basially same... went to town again. To chill again. Basically this whole week, i'm at town most of the time.... Also bought 2 ultraman figure from China Square which is Rare is s'pore..yeah... sense of achievement....

What is happening to me.......... lost....

2006-07-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

K i'm back again. This time with more negative entries. Looks like i getting more and more jia lat in the sense of person, myself if you don't get what i mean. Lately, don't seems to be a good day for me.

Why i said it this way? No idea too.... i myself have not idea what is bothering me. In my mind. I jsut refuses to listen to any advices given by anyone. Now i totally in my own world. Me very *Chui* now. Whatever unhappiness just keep to myself. In camp, i maybe smiling and joke with everyone. Well just to not let people know that something is troubling me in my mind ba.

Then when duty ended and we are allowed to go home. My mode changed. Become very persismistic all the negative thoughts come into my mind. Think i have pressurized myself too much ba..... as a result my mood changed.

All i can said is.... the Gareth you all once know.... is no longer exist.... in this world..... he have changed. I'll prove to those who think so......... nightmare has just begun......

Hope someone can stop me before it's too late..........

*Darkness overwhelm my mind. As darkness surrounds me. A sense of darkness, evilness and agony rules me. Control is a problem. Evil triumph my mind. Evil overrun me. Darkness rules my mind......*

Just a failure

2006-07-20T20:55:00.000+08:00

It's being a long while since i last blog. So now i back to blog again. Well lately quite busy that why dun have the chance to blog. Also lately too many things happen ya... Like camp stuffs to family stuffs etc etc. Just don't really have the chance to take a break. Nearly collapse that all i can say.

Then recently, a more bad news i received. I will not be able to become either platoon assitant platoon sergeant or platoon sergeant. Reason being was that i not as focus as my best friend whose being appointed. the saddest part will be eversince my friend become a APS, ppl ard him especially those who are currently a platoon sgt, all become closer to him. Its like make me feel i'm quite useless... i really dun know what goes wrong for me. i wanted to know but i dun have the ans..who can tell me....haiz..headaches....

going crazy soonz..

Nomore a nice guy

2006-06-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

what a week

2006-05-14T21:11:00.000+08:00

Well another busy week i should say. Last week whole week from morning to evening sure got something to do. Mon and wed heliops, which is a exercise for in the event of real emergency 3 super puma singapore helicopter if you have no idea what it is, will land on our stadium soccer field and rubgy field. My role for that day is fire fighter team. Is to put out the fire in the event if the copper landing fail and caugh with fire.

Then thur is range, and i'm being appointed as the chamber safety spec which is to overlook the whole chamber which i in the firer safety, so that noone will get injured etc. Then left for home after the range at night. Reach home after midnight. Which is my first time to left camp so late haha.

Then today is Mother's day, well not a good day for my mum. Why? At first, i did promised her that i will bring her out for a meal today. However, due to my busy schedule of needing to rush finish my paper work which is due this coming week, i cancelled the whole plan. You all may said i'm selffish, but you have to put in my shoe then. What if i can't get my work done what will happen? I am a sergeant now, a commander, which mean expectation of work to be done well is high so cetain things have to be sarcifice what impt will come first. I don't really cares what you all think of my action. As long i felt that i am right, that it full stop.

K that all for my latest update. Got to go and clear my work now. Chaoz

A bz week

2006-05-01T20:27:00.000+08:00

WEll it's being a long time eversince i last update my blog. Well maybeit is due to my busy schedule ba. As a result seldom got the time to update the blog and most of the time i in camp. Hmm well last week was my first official duty week after the 2 wks OJT a mth ago. Well the feeling of duty the full duty is indeed different.

Not only have to do duty in the day. Sometime in the middle of the night, also have to wake up to do duty. So it a great challenge to me actually. Cause i a so call pig u know which mean once fall asleep not next day i won't wake up. So this is really the great time to see if i am a responsible guy anot.

Well last week was a bz wk for all us. Er why bz due to some foreign ship came to Singapore to berth for a couple of days. As a result those few night we can't really sleep well as some additional station were set up which mean some of the man power of certain station will be send over to the new station. As a result those few days were the day i become panda. Ha

But finally the day has come to end today. They set sail finally. Finally peace in our base again. Ha Then today after i book out, usual stuff went home, bath take a nap then go CP make spec. Well it something new to try on. A type which i nv dare to try before. Hha but the color abit gay la.. blue haha. K la...got to go liao..tml got to wake up early to go back to camp. Caoz.

End of Commander course and a sgt

2006-04-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

Unexpected, it was fast that the two weeks commander course just in a blink of eyes, it has come to an end. Thought the two weeks lots of obstancles such as due to the two weeks we being doing duty before being send back for the commander course, so it was like we become abit more slack.

However, even with the up and down, all 25 of us, still hold strong and fight over it and well we make it and all of us make it and become a sergeant from today onward. The saddest thing will be that after today, all of us will be going our own way again. Hardly we will meet.

From today onward, we have become sergeant, but it does not mean that it will be a easy job for us. As it will be more challenge and more responsibilities for us as a commander.

K that all for today update. Got to slp for tml. Chaoz.

Boring weekend

2006-04-02T22:13:00.000+08:00

Well after 2 wks of OJT( on job training) suddenly have such a long weekend it like not really get use to it. Maybe is due to the duty on weekend i think. Well anyway since i had such a long weekend, shouldnt waste it right. So make full use of this long weekend to really go out with friends. So friday night, when out with my army friend to catch a show at cenileisure, ultraviolent. Well but don't know how to describle the show, lame and action ba. From the start to the end of the scene fight all the way. But ok la...worth entertaining for once.

Then sat went out with ws and gang to bugis walk around. Just hang around loh. cause at home also nothing to do. Then had our dinner at the bugis village hawker center. Filling sia the dinner cause we ate the carrot cake which is quite famous one while $3 is alot eat until can die. Haha then after that, me, ws and lw went suntec walk about to wait for lw gf to come before me and ws go home.

Then today leh, meet up with her it's being a while since we last met so really treasure the time today. Then night went out for dinner with family. Well quite boring hor. Then tml till 19 apr, i'll be going for a course known as commander course which is to be a sergeant in 2 wks time. So hope everything goes on smooth for me.

2 wks of OJT( On job training)

2006-03-25T22:31:00.000+08:00

Wow~ time really pass fast man. In a blink of eye in has being 2 weeks of my on job training for my future duty. Well maybe it is due to everyday on and off for duty so the time seems to pass real fast. Learnt quite alot from the on job training like various ways to reaction in different situations. Sorry ya can't really expose what kind of situation. Confidencial. Well since the starts of this duty, i don;'t really look at the time much. Just everyday wake up go and report for duty and the next day end duty go back to bunk and chat with my bunk mate or do my own stuffs like do some read up. Well that the way for me to kill time i think.

Then few days ago just had the COC test, this is to determine if we are offically ready to perform duty anot. The test is on the various stations we went to during our On job training. Well for me land side to me no problem just sea side may have abit of problem cause i have not go for any attachment in sea side post till today. But well since the test is over, just hope for the best ya. K got to slp. Tml have to wake up early to go for duty.

Sianz... wkend burned

2006-03-17T21:06:00.000+08:00

Start of my so called duty ready. Now undergoing a scheme called OJT which is on job training. Which is we will be stationed at various point on different days to under go a study on how each stations the duty works. But the sad thing is that weekend will be burn quite often. We may have to do duty on either sat or sun depend on my platoon duty week. Sadded, got lesser time to spend with friends and family liao. Well but there is good and bad ba. Good is can save quite alot of money the bad is weekend gone loh. Hai that all ba. K liao that all for the updates. Tml duty again.

POC loh!

2006-03-14T12:59:00.000+08:00

Last friday was my end of course for my sea soldier POC. Very fast 3 mhts has passed. At first thought that 3 mths will be that long. But nv to my expectation, in a blink of eye, 3 mths gone. Thinking back, for this 3 mths many ppl from all walks of life i have met, we went thru hardship, sweat, hatred, agony, blood, pain, happiness and laughter together. Everything seems to be a dream. Just in a blink of eye, we had graduated from the 8 sea soldier course. We will heading into our different direction soon. Some will go to Tuas whereas some will still stay at changi. No matter what, once a platoon mate, we will alway be together as once. That what we were taught of.

Well after the course, everything seems more relax. It like more freedom for us. No longer has much time constrain. Finally can take a deep breath.

Rest week

2006-03-05T18:53:00.000+08:00

Last week, was just a rest week for me. WhY? because my back for no reason hurt for weeks so went to see a doc and was excuse for any physical activity for the whole week. As a result any physical activity they had, i'll be sitting there doing nothing. But lucky, for a week only as this week will be my last week in the course.

Just 5 more days and this fri my course end. This coming week will be a rather slack week too as only tml there be one phyical training after that will be just shooting and some exercise on what we had learned and then it be fri.

Ok la that all. Look forward to fri.

A busy sat.and a shitty fri

2006-02-26T21:39:00.000+08:00

Well yesterday, went out with my bro. Main objectives is to help my bro to see which type of laptops is the best and suit him the most. So we went out around twelve. Went to several locations from Funan the IT mall, then proceed to suntec havey norman and Courts and last but not least hougang point. Well it is hard to determine which is best as most of the specification are about the same. However, we were able to come out with the final decision and narrow down to 3 laptops which is ACER, Compaq and Toshiba, and the decision is up today when my bro decided to get ACER.

Back to friday. Friday was my army trainng course celebration night as in 2 weeks time march the 10, we will pass out from the course. So last fri was our so called SSC night. We had BBQ at east coast park. Quite boring to me as for majority of my friend, they bought their gf to the bbq as for me i bring alone a friend. and ppl misunderstood her as my gf. As a result it was a rather gan ga night there.

Well that all for this week. When there is any happening incident i'll be back again. Chaoz.

another weekend

2006-02-19T18:49:00.000+08:00

well basically this weekend to me is just another normal weekends. why? well only on fri i went out with ws, dq, jw and pc to bugis cause ws wanted to get a jacket. But end up he can't find any that the saddest thing. Sat leh, went for my religion thing in late afternoon then go tampine challenger to buy a thumb drive home. Before went home jsut grab some food for my family then 7 plus at home liao. Why so early reach home cause i wanted to accomany my mum ma cause weekdays i in camp no time to accompany her yah~

k la that all ba...nothing happening lately. The most happening and look forward to are my passing out ceromany in 14 days time. haha mean i dun have to book in at sunday night anymore hahah.

Meaningful saturday.

2006-02-11T23:51:00.000+08:00

Today went to meet a religion friend of my who i didn;t met for very long. He was my division leader during my poly days. Well we meet up at tampines interchange today. Went for a meal and had a graet chat together. Well lots of encouragement was given by him during our meal. Well he really encourage me alot on all the problem which i had and how i should overcome it. Which makes me feel much more happier and less vex finally.

Then after that, i go home first. Wait for my mum to get ready then we head to heartland mall for our dinner. Well i bring my mum to sakae sushi for dinner. I treat total cost 30 plus for 2 person. Well not a big sum of money loh.. she support me how many years ready, 30 plus is nothing compare to that.

Last but not least few quotes of the day:

Never live your live with regrets, everyday is a new start, move on and start all over again. No point looking back.

Treasure every moment u have as if it your last day.

Regrets

2006-02-05T15:33:00.000+08:00

Lately i feel very troubled. Just don't know why. Maybe too many happen in the past ba. Well ever since Chinese new year, it's like i not myself. Something i did during chinese new year which makes me regret i think. Well first is my planning cock up. Rude to mum the first thing during chinese new year first day. Then didn't give attitude to her. Supposing to be with my family whole day the first day of chinese new year, but end up, halfway near evening i disappear and worst of all, that day was my brother birthday and i didn't celebrate with them which is the worst thing i did so far. As a result it like till now i can't forgive myself. I don't know why. Wanted to do something to amend but it like there is no chance for me to amend my mistake. Haiz...sadden

Next is it like now i start to hate myself alot as in my ownself. Keep comparing with people. Haiz... i crazy liao i think. Next is a girl i rally like, being waiting for her since a year back. Well but it alot of challenge ahead of both of us that makes us unable to be together. Maybe sad for me but i understand as there is some problem she meeting of i dun mind but to wait for her. Thought sometime i feel down when a number of my friend around me able to be with the girl their like. Hai... nvm i'll wait....

CNY

2006-01-31T18:52:00.000+08:00

WEll so fast, 5 days of break for me has come to an end. Tonight got to book in liao. Hmm this year CNy is a rather boring year for me. Well lots of stunt take place. Quite a number of house visit was not made. Well two went oversea, one a elderly passed away last year so a year cannot go visit day. Chu yi went only 2 places after that, i went to meet my friend for bowl wherelse my parent and brother went suntec to walk around as house visit end rather early. Also to cele my brother birthday.

Chu Er, visit my father elder brother at jurong. Went for a feast at a restaurant at jurong east. The food well is great i could said haha. Well that day was a rather rush day for me as after that i have to meet my friend at sk as they coming to my house for a game of majong. WE play till late at night and change to blacjack. Day fly fast. Come to today, relative came to my house today in the late noon and a while my parent and my brother together with my relative rush to AMk to bai nian with another relative. While i'm here cause later got to book in scare be rush for me so stay at hm. Sad ...

K got to go. Back on friday.

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2006-01-22T17:52:00.000+08:00

Well quite a while didn't update my blog. Last week due to i fall ill badly so didn't really got the energy to get up and update the blog. Last week suffered from a high fever as high as 39.6 degree. Gone back to camp only on Tue night. Well last week to me is a fast week. Why? because i am still not fully recovered so as a result lots of physical exercise i can't take part. Basically just sit one side and watch haha.

Yesterday book out quite late so just meet up with my friend to get our final new year stuff. So far so good, can say some of us manage to get what we want. Hai new year very ma fan at time especially to buy new year clothing haha. Hard to find sia. But nvm la , in the end still manage to get it.

Well this coming week going to be a stress week too, thur and fri i'll be the platoon overal in charge. Stress sia. Scare chu stunt. Hope god be on my side man. And smooth till fri book out and happy for CNY haha. K la that all i wanna update. Update again abt my experience as a overal in charge.

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2006-01-10T19:47:00.000+08:00

Ok back to my blog. Well sunday was a stunt book in. why, cause tue today which is a public holiday, and we book in on sun and book out on mon evening. A total of 14 guys were on Mc for that book in. Sergeant was mad like what as most of them took mc just for the long weekend. Ha then bad thing was that i heard that those who went for private doc will get confinement this week for taking a long weekend haha. God bless them man.

yesterday, after book out, we went straight to Orchard to find my mum and bro to buy our new yera clothing. Well, reach there ard 7 plus. Then went for our dinner first. Then proceed on for our new year clothing hunt. The hunt was over ard 10 as most shop were close at that time. Then we wait for our dad to fetch us a paragon. Well not a bad hunt as all of us manage to get at least few items for new year. K that all ya. Got to go . Cya on wkend haha.

Happy b'day Anna

2006-01-08T18:22:00.000+08:00

Well yesterday was my poly classmate birthday. She open a chalet to celebrate her 21 birthday. I'm suppose to join my classmate on friday night for a overnight stay. But well just too tired to stay ba. Haha so went for her celebration on saturaday. At first thought majoirty of our classmate will be attending her celebration. But to our disappointment, only a quarter of us attend her birthday. Well at least there is some people. The rest are her pri, sec and Uni classmate.

However, god is not on our side yesterday. Raining for nearly whole day. Non stop. End up we have to use canvas to build a shelther to cover the BBQ pit from the rain. Quite fun la haha cos it the first time doing such thing. Haha. Well BBQ start ard 7. We cook and cook till we have abt a tray full then carry our food up to the room so that other people can do their own bbq too. All went fast soon after her cake cutting session, we left for home. Happy birthday Anna.

A New Year

2006-01-01T02:35:00.000+08:00

Hey guys. It me again. A new post for the new year. Well yesterday was new year eve. End of year 2005 and the start of year 2006. Yesterday lots of thing crop up for the planning of going out at new year eve. But thank god was on my side eventually. I came up with the idea of going to esplanade to catch firework. Manage to get friends to go and watch, or else i be alone. Ha.

Well we meet up at city hall ard 8. But my dear friend Zar chu stunt. Reach only at 9. So we go and have a quite dinner at suntec before we head to esplanade. Wah when walking towards esplanade, nearly faint, ren shan ren hai. Human jam everywhere. Squese here and there. a total chaos. We stick clock together so will not lost each other. Well also met up with my ex collegue of my temp job years back. She too was heading there to watch firework.

It my first time watching firework for new year eve. Well the feeling was totally different. Worth waiting for. Indeed nicer then previous year. After the firework, we took a bus NR6 home. Finally home at 2 plus.

Hmm ok la. Update till here then. Happy new year guys! =)

X'mas Day

2005-12-25T02:20:00.000+08:00

Well today is Christmas day. Well to me is just like another normal day. Today called a couple of my friend ws and dq out for a game of majong first in the noon. Then at night, me, ws, dq went to jalan kayu to meet jw and th for dinner. Well since all 5 of us were single so we decided to hang around at that area by sitting down chit chat till around 1. Then around 1 plus we walk slowly from jalan kayu to sengkang. Then i depart from them took a cab home. See like normal days right? haha. K got to slp liao. Tml have to wake up early. Got a game of basketball in the morning and noon majong.

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2005-12-10T23:43:00.000+08:00

Ok..back to my blog again. Well lately nothing happening so didn;t really go and update. Every weekends is the same to me. Either go out with friend for a while or stay at home play game whole day and night. Gameaholic le. Good way to save $$ haha. K la.. really nothing to update. Lately in camp just rotting around in bunk sleep and eat all the way.

Thou this few weeks abit ki siao. But nvm la. auto recovery.

* A msg to a special person. To me you are still the best. You may think that you are bad or not good. But to me, you are none other the best and most speical person i ever met so far. You changed my life my point of living. My life force. You gave me a special sense of living which i dun have at all. I willing to give my heart all to you. As promised to the god. I will wait no matter how long till one day when my life ends.. *

281105

2005-11-28T20:43:00.001+08:00

So fast... grad from BSLC at tekong. Now my new journey has begun. After 10 wks in BSLC we go on our seperate path again. This time for our own future. Sat book out ard 3. Then went home straight. Ws, Dq, Lx, Kun came to my house for a game of manjong. Well kun the big winner that day ya. The rest of us big loser..haha sadden.

Then sat come to an end. Sun went out to metro to meet my metro friend for a meal. Then go dw orchard meet jw for a while. Then go aml meet my sec clsmate. A bz day ya..haha But nth speical la... then today suppose to go report to new unit but fall sick so nw at hm rot. Tml morning then report. Wonder my last 4 days of leave can clear anot. Stay there do nth till 19 dec then start course v bo liao. K got to go liao. V sian. Ns really no life.. hope soon ORD ah...

281105

2005-11-28T20:43:00.000+08:00

a week to pop

2005-11-20T19:10:00.000+08:00

Ok back to my weekly post. Ok..last week you can said a rather slack week. Beside the exercise nutcracker which is dig trench for 3 days and nights nothing else. Then come to book out on fri. Fast right. Well fri night my company had our celebration for our end of course at jurong. Well not bad overall. Go there eat, drink, play games. Everything around 11. Then go home. Super tired go home bath see bed knock out liao.

Sat, another day for me. During the day do nothing stay at home, play game, watch tv and go out a while meet upwith friend for a meal. Then go home again wait for my mum to get home then whole family go serangoon Garden for our dinner. After that, went home, watch vcd again haha. This week routine abit what i know haha.

then today well nothing to update cos basically i do nothing the whole day ha. K that all. Got to go. Sleep so much still feel like sleeping haha. 5 more days to end of course. HA

A week has passed

2005-11-13T17:23:00.000+08:00

Last week was a fast week. well because last week was a so called busy week. First 3 days was a field camp to assess our ability to be a leader to lead a group of people. But for me i only participant for a day as i was sick so not allow to take part. So you can say it was a slack three days for me. Ha. Then fri also a fast week too. Early in the morning went to a site near NIE for section live firing. At first kinda of stress as we were shooting real bullets and have to do movement while shooting. And i'm the second group to move, it was a even more stress to me as i fear that i may shoot my teammate. Well but all stress was just a additional load to me. End up everything went on smooth and sound.

Then come to yesterday (Saturday) well book out quite early. So meet ws abd dq go sunshine plaza to get some gundam paint. But the color we want don't have the stock. So we go walk around in PS. Leck wee came to join us till 5 as he have to get something for his girlfriend for their anniversary celebration.

Well i left the group at around 515 to rush home for dinner with my family. With Pizza as supper haha. Got income so must also treat my family eat ma..haha

K la.. that all. Got to go watch show liao.
Two more weeks to Pass out and be Corporal. Yeah...

End of a week break

2005-11-06T17:53:00.000+08:00

So fast a week vocation come to an end. Well a fast week indeed. What i did this few days. Ok..bascially this few day i stayed at home most of the time. Only on wed. After book out from guard duty. Went home get change and meet my bro ws, dq, lw and pc to catch a show at ps. At first intend to watch the andy show. But no more tix, in the end, catch flight plan. After the show, dq keep asking lots of question making us blur sia..haha .

Only thur whole day we concentrate on painting our gundam. Saturday too. From afternoon paint till night. After that have a little bit of majong session and that it. Ko. sleep. haha. and it sunday. Well day just flies man. Time to book in soonz. Sianz.. That life... hope 2007 be here soon. I want to go back to civilian life....

Tml till either wed or thur will be our field camp exercise..sianz... forest again.. k got to go bye.

shit mood.

2005-10-31T18:48:00.000+08:00

Sian tonight got to book in. Just for the guard duty for tml. Damn..holiday do guard duty. Damn sickening man. Worst still..today is my bro b'day celebration. Yet i can't really go and attend his celebration. Mood for shit. Go there at first wanna to catch a movie de. But because of me who have to go home 5 plus. Not a single movie can meet my timing as a result they temperory call off the movie. Haiz.. my fault again. Sadden. Then 5 plus i go home liao loh. Now preparing to go to camp soonz. Sickening. Damn it.

First weekend sunday at homez

2005-10-30T23:08:00.000+08:00

Finally back home le.! After two weeks in camp. Finally i feel reliefs. Able to smell some fresh air again le. Ha. Well book out yesterday. Today early noon, went to dq house, to meet ws actually to collect gundam air spray. But because i went there too early, so i go to dq house first. Over there do few stunt. Me and lw and dq too sian, decide to play smack down vs raw. Each chose a char to play. Actually wanted to tag together to fight against computer. But in the end we smack each others up till all lay flat on the floor. Stunt indeed. After that went to ws house to collect the gundam air spray and take a look at his work. Wah not bad sia his gundam painting. Better then my man. Need to work hard liao. haha

After that night, went to marina south with my family to have dinner. Have steamboat today. Long time ever since had the chance to eat together. Feeling is indeed very different. Chat around till 9 plus with my parent and my bro decide to go for a bowl. Well then we go. Parent watch us play and laugh when both of us wash the drain. haha After that go home liao le. Cos quite late liao and parent has to work tml. k that all ba, all watch vcd liao. cya. bye

sianz.

2005-10-16T19:03:00.000+08:00

Ok let sum up what going on last week. Well last week is actually a slack week i can say. Not much lesson only one or two lesson or so. Most of the time doing nothing. Especially on fri whole day we are basically do our area cleaning and that it. Rot at the bunk whole day whole night. Go for dinner and lunch that it. First time ever u know... but one thing bad is time pass very slow. Sat can say to be a busy day. Doing section movement for half a day. Run here and there like mad...

But there will be a two weeks which i won't be coming home. That is this coming weekend 23 oct. Due to there is two holidays in nov our timetable was pushed forward and our company award us with a week break(Don;t know if it good or bad neither, cos next week can't go home =x) Sian right. 13 days before can book out. So bore sia... sadden. But nevermind Zi wo an wei. Got a week break which my friend don't have.

K la.. that all for today ba. Update again once i come back on 29 oct.

091005

2005-10-09T18:41:00.000+08:00

Well another week has passed. Quite fast for this week sia. Maybe is due to my busy schedule in camp ba. End up busy like mad without knowing another weekend has come ha. Well this week nothing happening just had a guard duty last monday. First time doing guard duty. People sleeping i walking around. ha. Weird sia. But night it kinda of peaceful ya.

Well yesterday after book out from life range at Jurong. Immediately went home change and call my buddie Ws and Dq out for a game of basketball at sk. Three of us like mad fellow. catch the rebound ball and throw it back to the net again. Macham three monkeys jumping abt. ha. Think the guy whose playing at the basketball court may think we're nut. Ha.

K that all ba. Anyway pay is here. so happy haha. Time to really save up man. Chaoz.

021005

2005-10-02T18:14:00.000+08:00

This week nothing special. Kinda busy last week in camp. Whole day basically be learning about rifle stuffs whole day. Yesterday after book out. meet people who bought thing from me then meet a friend for a meal. We went to Souel Garden again. Well that our trademark what to do ha. Ate like many years didn't eat before. Well can said due to the food in our camp not that nice la.. ha . After that went walk around. Then go home liao. Well that all ya. Chaoz.

A worst and terrible stage

2005-09-25T17:05:00.000+08:00

Well ive being posted to sergeant course. Which is SISPEC. At first after the POP happy as i thought that it will be my last time going back to the island Tekong. But, i'm wrong i have to go back again. This time it was totally different from BMTC. The environment was different too. Everything different. People around me too. All seems different. As a result i was ina total lose.

Right now i just don't know where am i. Totally lost again. Suffered from servere stress as the standard they want from us is very high. I'm afraid i might not be able to take it. My heath seems to be not good as before. Not very sure can hang on how long more. Waiting for specialist to endose me with a letter for Out of course. I can't do it anymore. I afraid i may go mad eventually. I decide to opt of of this course completely.

so that not only my health can recover to it stage, also i can have more time with my parent. Weekend book out to me mean nothing. Time spend with parent is less. Sunday everyone is working, alone at home, kept thinking of the course i in right now. just couldn't stop thikning all the way. It driving me mad soonz. Haiz... will god be my side to help me stand up again. Right now i really lost of what to do. Nv look forward to training etc. Envy those having 8 to 5. Why i'm so easily take ppl word and put i want to be a commander. why... just a idiot i am....

Another day

2005-09-14T23:44:00.000+08:00

Today went out with my sec best pal. Meet him at woodland causeway point. Then realise there got nth much to walk around. So we decided to head to suntec to walk around. Then at suntec we first go and had our lunch then walk around. two of us like crown like that especially when see Toy'R'Us we chiong in macham many yeaer didn't see toy sia.

Then after that i head to a model shop at suntec. Saw my infinite justice. Want don't want situation. In the end decide not to buy don;t know why. Think i crazy liao. After that, we decided to walk from suntec to sunshine then to the new library walk around. Macham tourist. First time entered the library. Everything security counter for each reference section we have to took of our cap don't know for what sia..make a fool out of ourselve.

After that head to PS, then to Taka then to Far East had our dinner. Then U turn back to Taka again Go to a shop which opened by our sec school teacher. well she not there, only left with two of our junior so disturb them loh. Till the shop close and head home together.

too bo liao

2005-09-09T00:11:00.000+08:00

Ha now too wu liao so type out one of my company song and our infantry song. So i should start with my company song.

We come from a company, famous in BMT. We come from a famous WHISKEY company.
We fight for our glory, fight for our Victory, We fight with a spirit u never see before.
Whiskey! Whiskey! all the way.
We like it here, we like it here, we found ourself a home.
A home, a home sweet home!

now for my infantry song. Spelling maybe a bit off hor.

We the panter of the infantry
with the spirit of biyonet in our blood
Don't mess with us!
Cause we are the best, the best in the SAF!
9 th infantry
we trash you ah!
we trash you ah!
9 th infantry
we beat you ah!
we defeat you ah!
Forging Ahead! 9 th infantry!
Forging ahead! 9 th infantry!
POP LOH!

POP Loh!!

2005-09-07T17:46:00.001+08:00

Finally! Three months of training has come to an end. All the hard work comes to an end with a graduation parade yesterday. All end after our parent were invited to come down to the parade square to help us wear our jockey cap, then we throw it up to the air after doing the infantry roar.

Celebration held among us after the parade at our company line. Taking photo togethers for one more time, throwing our sergent up into the end and splash water at our platoon sergent. Everything end at 7 when it our turn to leave tekong. Kinda of sad but it a wonderful memory

Well now not a recruit anymore. I'm a private. Ha

POP Loh!!

2005-09-07T17:46:00.000+08:00

A terrible week

2005-09-04T15:16:00.000+08:00

Last week once again not a wonderful week for me. Went for check up in my camp MO. X ray my lung. realise i had lung infection. as a result, i was given a week of rest. Not allow to do anything. Sad. As last week was the last week of my bmt phrase. The upcoming two days will be just to return all the stuffs. As a result, i was not allow to take part in SOC, nor the graduation rehersal but luckily i was allowed to take part the re-entry parade where our parent will be coming down to put the cap for us. I was relived at last.

Saddest part, i can't take part in the 24 km road march. Which was one of the significant event as this road march is not a company level road march, but a school level road march. Hence i was instructed to take care of the security of the company to ensure that noone break into our bunk. Well it ok, as long as now i recovered. Most importantly will be my health and not to make my parent worried.

haiz

2005-08-29T18:07:00.000+08:00

just too free before i book in. Sian la. ytd go and see doc. Doc gave me a MC. Endup i cannot go back to camp together with the rest of my company. Have to rest at home. Haiz. IPPT,SOC have to go back to retake. Not sian is dunno how to say liao. today suppose i b involve in the competition. End up ganna mc cannot take part. Hope my team win.

What really most right now is i scare that i will go out of course or out of training because ytd doc suspect i either suffer asthma or lung infection. Don't know is which one. she ask me to go to my camp MO to check to determine is it. Haiz. Hope it nothing man, as next tues is my pop. Don't wanna to retake all over again.

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2005-08-28T18:49:00.000+08:00

Yoz here i am again. Well last week consider not a smooth week for me ya. Tuesday after the firing range, my platoon mate report to our sergent that he lose his stuff lost. As a result we from the first platoon to go off end up the last to go off. Plus i was being suspect as one of those who may have snatch his staff as my was not attached too. But in the end it was solved when one guy finally admit that he the one who mistaken took it.

Then also miss my 16Km road march as i was not feeling well too. till not still coughing quite badly dunno why too. Hope wun lead to any serious illness. I just want to get it done and that it. Cos 7 more days to POP ha. k that all la.

Go prepare for book in liao.

2005-08-14T15:25:00.000+08:00

long time didn't update my blog. Too bz lately.. also lazy ba =x hmm so let me sum up the whole of 3 wks what happen. 2 wks ago having my field camp. So not able to come online to update. Hmm field camp like nth to say leh. Except hate the turnout. Early in the morning kanna wake up by our sergent saying that enermy in approaching need to tear down this and that and fall in platoon level and march off. Siong sia. But second turn out we turn clever le. The moment we heard early slp we know something happening going to take place. So everything can said is prepared.

the day after field camp. Meet my section mate, Alex, jeremy, Keigo for a meal at sakae sushi. Macham hungry ghost sia. We ate a total of 70 plus plate of sushi. Night then meet wei siang at my area buy majong table as night we have a majong session at my house. Then night Dunqi, jun wei nichlos and pei ching came to my house for majong session. Play till ard 2 plus i buey dahan i go slp they carry on. Next day afternoon carry on again.

Today wake up early in the morning, meet wei Siang go look for strike freedom. Try our luck.. But all the shop we wanted to try are either not open or no stock. In the end decided to go to Hobby art and make order. After that go hm. Ok la..think write too much liao. Wait ppl thought i tell grandfather story. Got to go .Caoz.

2005-07-03T16:25:00.000+08:00

Long time didn't come and update my blog. due to in camp on weekdays only weekend i'll be at home.

So far things goes quite smooth in camp(Tekong) The sergent is good i refering to my own platoon one. I find myself quite fortuate to be in platoon one as the sergents here, they are rather friendly but when come to serious business, we must be serious of course.

Whole day in camp basically will be PT( physical training) tiring but still i manage to improve my physical strength. This coming week will be a busy week. Almost every hour there will be some lesson we have to attend. Sure a very fast week ahead.

Week after next will be the start of my BMT. A even more busy week.

A day before Ns

2005-06-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

So fast a day before my enlistment le. Morale kinda of low. You can said it sad after all. Soon i going to leave everyone for the time being and head for my national service. Time just flies.

Today a farewell dinner was organised by my buddy or you can said it my "brothers" We had a prata session today. The purpose of this session is for me, whose going to camp tml. We chat and talk all the way...till near nine it time for us to make a move.

We departed for our way at sengkang. A warm so call hug was exchanged among us. Wishing me take care by them was really touch my heart. Luckily i manage to hold my tears back telling myself i am a guy, why should i shed a tear.?

Gonna miss everyone soon. Especially my Brothers: Wei Siang, JunWei, Leck Wee the four brothers who chat and crap all the way. Gonna miss the time we had brother.

Lastly a girl who entered by life early part of this year, Celine. Thank for your support and encouragement all the way. Miss ya too.

Haiz..that all ba. Got to go rest early... miss ya guys. Cya in 2 wks time.

Last day of work

2005-06-05T00:20:00.000+08:00

Ytd 04/06/05 was my last day of service in metro. Kind of sad and busy overall. Busy as in as it was the great singapore sale. Which means that there will be lots of shoppers come and purchase items. But time pass simply too fast. Scan and pack and shouting for next customer, clock just keep clicking away. Soon it's 1830. My service for metro for the period of approximately nine months has come to an end. Sad.

Just simply can't bear to leave the selling floor. My last time touching the keyboard of the cashier counter, pack float etc.

Metro sengkang or MS i should said, is a place where it play quite a big part in my life. Memories keep floading in my mind, a place where i had my laugher, fun, sadness and anger. A place where i met some great people in my life. Who did change my life and prospect.

A place where i find warmth and cosyness among all working line i work in before. There maybe some who are not as good as what we thought. But there is still some who will alway be there and care for me.

I would like to take the opportunity to thank the following great person. Nancy Goh( Senior Cashier), Jenny Quek(Cashier), Dolly Kam( Home Linen Dept Supervisor), Dorren Tan( Chieft Cashier), Sally Lee(Assit Chieft Cashier), Xiao Hui( Children Staff), Tang Hui Lin( Children Staff sale Cord), Jenny Chan( Lady Juinor Supervisor), Mohamad( Household Staff), Siti( Home Linen), Siti( Household).

Thank for enter into my this wonderful part of working life. It you all who makes my working life so enjoyable. Thank a million! Miss ya lot!

Time..

2005-05-12T01:50:00.001+08:00

Recently been busy training up for my upcoming NAFA. I really hope i can at least obtain a silver for my NAFA so that i can get a 2 months reduction in NS. So that i can go in later part of the year. Weird right? People rather enter early then late. But for me, i'm diff? No there a reason behind it.

I really hope that i can have more time with my family, friend and to be there for someone special at her crucial period for her new environment.

Time passed real fast. So fast it 12 of may. Which mean that if i didn't obtain a silver in NAFA this upcoming wednesday. I have less then a month and i have to leave everyone around me. To serve the nation. FOr sure i will miss everyone badly. My parent whose being there for me for pass twenty one year. My friend thou we encounter friction at time. But you all are still the best of all buddy in my live.( WS, JW, Hidayat)

For the remaining moment of my time before i enter NS. I really hope that i can spend more time with her when both of us is free. "Time fly will never come back. Treasure the very moment now instead of regret later."

Lately my mood isn't that good too. Thinking of Ns just make me very very depress. I just don't know why. Maybe is that i simply can't bear to leave thing behind me. Plus you can said that i think too much. I fear that i may leave this world anytime during my service. I really don't know. Just that it is my fear that all.

Lastly really have to thank all my friend who had being encouraging me, training with me all this while. Really thank you guy alot! Without you all. Maybe impossible will not become possible.

I just hope that i can stop the time..... How i wish i could. .... just that i felt that i have not done not during my past 20 yrs...... haiz.

Time..

2005-05-12T01:50:00.000+08:00

26/04/05

2005-04-26T01:37:00.000+08:00

So fast april coming to an end. May approaching soon... Which mean that time is drawing near to my NS enlistment. Time is drawing near. Yet there is many things which i wish to do have not do. It time to treasure my very last moment with my loved one, friends etc. No one will know what wil happen when you go in. Alive or dead? no one know...

So what have i done the entire of last week? Hmm let me think precisely nothing much. Bascically just a week of chalet. yeah... Fun time pass real fast. a wk has just end. Fun ended all my close buddy has to go back to sch to do their FYP.

Another thing is bothering me right now. Fallen for someone le. But should i open my mouth to tell her about my feeling to her? or should i just keep quiet. I do wish her to be my gf. But is it fair for her when i go NS? I don't want to leave her alone. What should i do when she needs me and i can't be on her side... i don't know...

maybe just let nature take it's course ba... i totally have no idea.

thinking and thinking

2005-04-01T00:41:00.000+08:00

Exam is just around the corner. Well, not really into the preparation yet. Kind of vex recently. Don't know to do it anot. Few of my friend encourage me to tell this girl about my feeling for her. But there is two major problems facing right now. I believe she will believe that i still have not give up on my previous girl friend which we broke up near 3 mths ago. Another problem is i not so sure when i will be enlisted into NS. If i enlisted to NS. I be leaving her alone again which i felt is kind of bad too. Like a selffish act. Think the best is let remain as friend. There isn;t any thing i can do i believe. I scare if i and her together now. If i in camp and she needs someone, i can't be there for her. She such a good girl. Definately will find a guy who will treat her real well. Much more better then me.......

2005-03-17T21:54:00.000+08:00

Life is short, cherish the every moment you had may it be with your loved one family, friends. Noone will know what will happen the next day. Tml u maybe lying in the coffin u nv know. If u love someone don't miss the chance to tell her how you feel abt her. Noone knows, when will the day come, she may just leave this world, and in her heart, she is waiting for u to say the word:" I Luv U" the three miracle words.

Failure right now does not mean tha you will fail in the near future. Learn from the mistake and rectify it. Not to hold back your action and thoughts. Stand up, fight again and again .. don't be dishearted after few setbacks.

Life is full of surprise and miracle. Yet life can be full of sadness and sorrow. But it up to u on how you look at it. you very own point of view. Sadness and sorrow can turn into a world full of color and happiness. It's all up to you if you want to do it. Not ppl ard. You have to help yourself. Your life lies in your hand, not others. Others can't control your life.

Don't ever let fate decide your path. we should be the one who create our fate and soar to our destiny. .

A month thoughts...

2005-02-25T00:07:00.000+08:00

Got back my term test paper. Guess what, currently out of 5 papers i received back, i failed fours of my modules. What the hell am i doing that period of time? Maybe because of that i don't have the mood to study ba. Just though of failing ba. Well really demoralising when got back my result. 23,34,40 and 48. First time in my life to fail so many modules in poly. Break my record man~

Well it being a month we broke off. Well this month i have thought alot. To give up or not to. Or wait. After some serious thought. I think maybe we don;t mend to be together after all. Why wanna cling on to something which will lead to no way?

I have decided to let it go. Carry on with my life. May it be alone. I still can fight on strongly. I am back to who i am, believe in every action and decision i made. Thank friend whose being around me supporting me and encouraging me when i am down this period of time.

Dedicate to : Wee Siang, Sui Kae Ling, Celine Tay, Jun Wei, Hidayat.

My Thoghts, my heart

2005-02-13T01:12:00.000+08:00

Many people said to me, why don't i give up and look for another one. Well....say is easy but to do it it's hard. They not me, they don't know how i felt i think. My heart till now still beating with her. Not a single change... People said i stupid, i just keep quiet.. people said it her fault for my stage right now. I said no, it my fault. Don't ask me why i still defend her. I don't know. Just follow my heartbeat as advice by my friend( Potato) ba. She said, even you may said give up now. What if your heart still for her and don't give like giving up? how? isn't it like deceiving yourself? Maybe true ba.

Today saw each other again. Wanted to talk to her. But i don't know where all my guts go to. I just act as if i see nothing and talk to other people. Sad to said now are we still friend i have no idea at all. Don;'t dare to think anymore. If i have a wish i wish for two things. One which is impossible, which is to win her back which i belive can take place only in my dream. Second, will be hope i just met with an accident and lost all my memory. Maybe that the best thing ba. I'm out of options ready. I don't know how long i take it. I think i going to collapse anytime anywhere. I not sure when but i know it be here soon.

At time i dare not sleep early unless i tired. I scare my tears will just flows out for no reason. Days has being crying to sleep unless i'm tired. I don't know why. Why can't i control my emotion.? Am i a guy? or purly a idiot a born failure in this world. I don't know...........

My wishes right now is really hope i and her be at least friend. I don't ask for much..........

09/02/05

2005-02-10T01:24:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day of lunar new year. Not muct festive feeling for me. To me just like a normal day to me.

Everything went on smooth for me. Quite enjoying and yet i'm quite nasty and attitude to some of my relative. They said me one thing, i shoot them with ten times of them, make sure they keep their mouth shut. Everything went on smooth till during having dinner with the whole family, a auntie of my asked, do i have a gf.

My mood changed immediately. I answered in my heart. Yes i did have a very good gf at first. but i failed to cherish her. I lost her during my birthday. I'm just a born failure ba" that what i said to myself. I just told her that i just broke up with my gf. My aunt said, old don't go new one will not arrive. I immediately get heat up. Who i still like i know. It not that one gone time to look for another one. said is easy to do it is hard....

As a result of that, i start to think, for the whole of 2 hrs. Moodless. WAnted to cried but can't. Don't wanna let them know i'm not ok. Why am i that useless? why can't i forget her.... haiz...

CNY?

2005-02-09T03:42:00.000+08:00

Well... it's CNY. So i hereby wishes everyone a happy New Year. But to me right now right here typing i have something to say and that is i totally don't have the new year mood!! i have no idea why too. Maybe of some reason which i don't really wish to mention ba.... Just knowing that today 09/02/05 will be my attitude day. Which mean don't give a damn of whose around me. Do what i think is right.

Today went out with my friend or so called "Brother" to kovan. Meet at 1130pm. Well as usual. Sure there will be one of us be late. So while waiting, i and one of my friend. Jun Wei, we went to arcade to play first. While i was driving my Datona, my friend called me, telling me that he had reached. Wah.... sabo me... caused my car to lose control and bang against the wall. Upset man. My record gone loh.

After his arrival, we went to bowl. First round 1 part, all three of us play like shit. Gradually improve and start to hit all the pins at one go. Wow~ my skill improve leh...haha

Well but too bad we came out quite late. So near 2am, we head home and now i am here typing. OMG!. NEar 4 and not sleeping. ha don't intend to sleep ba. K go fix my Gundam.

2005-02-07T01:06:00.000+08:00

Ever since i work in metro for months. This is the first time that i can close my counter near 10.15pm. Lots of customers today. Keep clearing the que none stop. One after another. Just never end.

Today also thought alot. Can said this the first time i really love a person so deep ba. Well it true that i had decided to give up on her. But still i find that it hard for me to look for another one from what my fellow friend of metro said. My heart seems to be still with her. Haiz... Why god must do this to me. This kind of Chi Qin feeling is damn sickening. Can someone just tell me what to do. Before i go and bang against the wall to lose my memory which is the best.

People may thought i take this break up as nothing to me. Can still see me smile and laugh with you all. Well it is just that you all didn't really look into my heart ba. Can't expect me to show my sorrow out when work. When i don't wanna many people to know. Up to this stage. Looks like i don't have to act anymore. Sad jiu show loh.... Since one "LOUD Speaker" in metro had said it out.

- i can feel my heart in motion, deep in my heart and passion, life is strong and are we loving, travel in the surface of time....... -

010205

2005-02-02T01:24:00.000+08:00

Yesterday paper01/02/05 terrible. My worst defeat man. Should i said the worst day from the start of morning? Wake up late. Can't have a round of final revision cham! worst! no 74 to service me to school End by 15 minutes for my paper! OH my God! Most exciting part, out of 7 questions i think i manage 3 to four and one i answer the wrong part. Pengz! Just hope for the best ya. Haha Sway of the swayZ

Today make up my mind. I decide not to give up thou there are some friend around me who advice me to give up on her as they said it is too long for me and if by that time the result i get not what i expected i may not be able to take it. But i ask myself. If i listen to them and give up, isn;t it the same as betraying my heart and follow others. Since my heart said wait then wait. I know what i'm doing.

I know my heart still beating for her. I know i still love her and still fighting for her and since i know that most of the problem is due to me. Why i should sit there and do nothing. I should stand up and think of a solution and win her back and not sitting here and do nothing waiting for what? Moon to fall on my head to die ah? I can't! i have to do something le. I have to. I don't want this relationship just like that come to an end.

Ok la...that all ba got to go koonz. Getting more and more tired recently. Think i going down sooner or later.

-Sign off-

My Self Reflection.

2005-01-27T23:48:00.000+08:00

Well have being thinking alot this few days. Well i finally analyse the problem. The problem actually got to do with me. All is my causes. Well such thing may not happen if i didn't keep sms her almost everyday. Caused her to be unable to concentrate on her work. All is my fault.

I'm not a good bf after all. A guy who don't really understand a girl well enough. Haiz. Nothing but a unless brat. Deserve to die then live in this world. What i really hope is though now we had agree that i should not msg her for the time till endof her 'o'. It may be tough. But this time i really going to wait le. I mean it.

I really hope we can be like before again May nothing tear us apart. Maybe i'm dreaming but i hope my dream will come true. I looking forward to the day. Being dreaming of her lately haiz. Exam around the corner. Must concentrate...

Got to go to bed le. That all for today ba. Have to wake up early later to study for my test again .HAve not finish my revision. Haiz.

-I'll miss you MM. Love Ya-